Seriously, I need to stop Krispy kreme, not only because diabetes concern, also because I’m broke so quick every time.
Can you imagine after this ($7.95) I’m like
It’s also because I had to buy a present for 1 year old baby, changed hair colour so many time recently, bought many energy bars etc.. anyway I’m getting paid tomorrow or day after tomorrow so not too worry about it.
It’s actually, thrill. LOL imagine you are middle of nowhere and 0 money you have. I remember first time I got 0 left my bank account I was so moody and sad, but every now and then It happens all the time like, getting paid on Monday, spend it like water, drought by Friday sometimes earlier like Thursday. So whenever someone asks me to go out I’m like
“will you buy me a food? heheh”
You know Romi always buys me a food and I’m like
Living in Silverwater isn’t the best idea, My previous boyfriend’s sister lives same building so I can bump into him anytime. Korean supermarket is placed just downstair, Krispy kreme is merely a minute away and M4 started charge me from last week.
*Moved to Auburn library from KK because it was too noisy and everyone was interested what I’m writing*
HEY! this library is actually, awesome! big, clean, lots of tables, and FREE WIFI! I think I’ll come often 😀
Anyway, I feel like spring is just an inch in front of my nose, (Korean style expression) Your mood is affected by weather as you know, I am so excited these days.
Yesterday I went to B-day party, It was his first birthday, I don’t know in western culture, or any other country has this kind of party though it was very “extravagant” according to someone. hehehe… Yes! I partly agree, I’ve heard they spent $15,000 for just hiring big boat,(What’s different between cruiser and boat, cruiser sounds a bit more fancy for me) and they paid food, staffs, other stuffs as well. I assume it’s approximately $20,000~ or more. $20,000! What if I have $20,000… It’s just stupid to think because probably, it’s nothing for them. They could spend this much money or more because they are happy to celebrate their first baby’s first birthday. So.. I was happy to attend since all my friends, and foods… were there.. LOL and weather was awesome too.
When it comes to Korean style “celebration” things.. it’s all about money. When someone get married, they give money to bride and groom. When someone is dead, they give money to the chief mourner, When someone is having his/her first birthday, they give money to his/her parents. Do they even know it’s their birthday? I don’t remember what I did when it’s my first birthday. I don’t even remember what I did last year my birthday! I bought kawaii worm plush toy from Just white @QVB and I was proud of my self because it’s limited edition worm,
ref : my limited edition obsession
But well, I’m the only one who bought a present among the Koreans. There are 2 groups in party, One was Korean group and other is Japanese group. I saw only 1 Western male and He seemed very awkward. maybe not, I don’t know
Japanese families brought a lots of gifts, I saw a wooden horse which is really kawaii, mostly it was toy, pictures, whatever for baby boy. But all my friends just brought an envelope and they gave to parents. Mm… What is this, is this a birthday party or a parent’s luxury cruiser social party in the shape of birthday party.
Don’t get me wrong.. I like them. They treat me very nicely so sometimes I am wondering if I deserve it. the Family, the ideal family that I’m dreaming for.. She’s having second baby now and She and I are in same age… many of women in my age, got married already and some already have babies..
What did I do…
Somehow, I feel like I’m spending lots of money since I started to be socialised, (meet new people, going to party etc) imagine all of my friends in Korea they probably have been doing this give-and-take thing almost 5 years or more. Because life is all about birth, celebrate, and death. I was somehow really afraid of my wedding even though I’m not planning to get married yet, (One day I think I will, no?… do I expect too much again? damn) because I didn’t attend ANY OF MY FRIEND’s wedding, funeral, or whatever it is since I was in oversea most likely, but it’s excuse tbh, I still wouldn’t go if I was in Korea and have nothing to do.
Many Korean says that going to wedding is like investment for future, it’s like
“I here, come your wedding and paid money to celebrate you guys, so you guys must have to do same thing when it’s my wedding.”
Really? If they think about wedding ceremony like this way It’s correspond to not attend there because I’m not inviting them later anyway either. I do not understand why people spend so much money on their wedding. It’s just wedding. like.. wedding, people.
I’d probably spend so much time on it because I want to plan from 0 to 100, from nothing to everything. Like what flowers I’d use, theme colour, guest presents, font for wedding card, (too many fonts are really. bothers me. a lot. my brain hurts when there are too many options to choose) wedding dress and reception dress, songs to play and food of course, CAKE, drinks, the place.. phew, It’s of course about money, but also it’s time and effort. Because It’s maybe only once in your life, (most likely not, though LOL) but you always “expect” that it’s first and last.. right?
wowowow, look Thailand’s, it’s 56%.. wtf
Some Europe countries, Why they get married if they anyway will divorce later.
Anyway, get back to topic, I’m planning to visit Korea this November since my 2 best friends are getting married on November, I won’t go their “give-and-take” wedding, but just want to say congratulation, and give an envelop like many people do. It’s not like
“You are my best friend so I give money and you know what’s next right?”
It’s more likely
“Get some nice desert with this when you are in honeymoon, and try not to get divorce because it’s gonna be very sad.”
“I love you but I don’t know how to show it, so I’ll give you this instead because it’s the way normally people show their love. and please, no divorce, alright?”
*Moving back to my place because I don’t have much power left on my laptop and it’s 2 hours free parking and I spent 90mins already here. oh wow*
So yes.. I give them money because I love them not because I want a “return“.
Oh yes, and I don’t want to go their wedding because Korean’s 오지랖 cultureㅋㅋㅋ
You know there’s Korean supermarket, downstairs of my unit. I’ve been living here almost a year and they call me as “Chelsea” since my membership name is Chelsea. When my car was fucked, Simon (receptionist @42) picked me up sometimes, and He liked the K supermarket because it’s the biggest K supermarket branch in Sydney. They have pretty much everything you could get in Korea. Anyway, I brought Simon sometimes there and I got a new car so Simon didn’t have to come anymore. The casher was like,
“Wooo Chelsea, your boyfriend so young and cute!”
… I said nope,
but I know why they were so excited. Ever since I moved to this unit and almost every morning before work, every evening after work I got food from there. 3-4 staffs and I were all got close, and they were always asking me that why I’m single. Sometimes teased me like Valentines day, or my birthday, they were like
“Ehhh no one gave you chocolates? that’s bad!”
“What’s that flowers from? boyfriend!?!?!”
Once vitamin came over my place, I again brought him to supermarket. I was so nervous what if they say another silly thing in front of me, and him LOL lucky they didn’t say anything but they ask me sometimes,
“where’s that glasses guy?”
I know they do these things without any bad intention, It’s just cultural thing.. Koreans.. They are warm-hearted in a good way, nosy in a bad way. They maybe really care about my sex life so keep asking me If I’m still single, They maybe just curious. It’s just our thing. gossips, rumours, and so on.
Didn’t I tell you about my teenager story, Most of girls in my class treated me differently because I have mum who keeps changing her boyfriend. Even though I didn’t do any harm thing to them, they just needed something to destroy. If I can go back to that moment that everyone bitches me, I wouldn’t give a fuck though, I was too vulnerable somehow, and I thought I had a problem. hehe it was their problem though.
Imagine I’m at my friend’s wedding, everyone would start guessing game who the fuck I am. Lucky it’s on November so I won’t need to wear a short sleeves, but the worst thing happens if they find out I’m the one who they have ostracised. They will talk about me again.
It’s not about I care or I don’t care.. I don’t like it ㅜㅜ I 진짜 don’t like it when they talk shit behind me.
Don’t you think it’s unfair to talk something bad behind? not in front? Because I got no one to talk to about, so there will be no chance to elucidate more about it. If they say outrightly, face to face, I’d like to say
“Yah I’ve been Australia for several years now, working and smoking weeds sometimes. Wishing that you bitches all fucked up.”
But I know I can’t, because they won’t ㅜㅜ It’s frustrating ㅜㅜ life struggle ㅜㅜ
My friends, rarely ask me What I’ve been doing in Australia. I said I’m working, and they said everyone is actually wondering that What I’m doing for living.
mm… Does it really matter?
Why come visit my instagram, facebook and see what’s going on in my life, what I’m having for dinner tonight and guessing how’s my life. Like… Do you have that much time in your hands to stalk someone who’s not really important in your life? If it’s fun, that makes sense though, (because I stalk sometimes, too ㅋㅋㅋ *guy’s only*) in that case, I’m really proud of myself because they still curious about me even though I hate them. ㅋ
All I’m saying is, I don’t want to be something that they talk about, in their party after wedding. ..ㅋ yeah excusessssssss maybe they forgot me already.
Random snap from yesterday ㅋㅋㅋ I love this picture. My cheeky smile, (was excited to have bread and butter) nice background, needed to hide my friends’ face due to privacy concern.
I dyed my hair again. Thanks for the guys that said I look alike meth addict, no-more-Harley Quinn-hair! back to normal.. and had hair cut too. It’s cute! ain’t i?
Sooooo, anyway, life goes on. right? I think I wrote this long because I want to upload this pictureㅋㅋㅋ Tomorrow I have to buy an another cake since I missed my little brother (not my real sibling)’s birthday 🙁
This guyㅋㅋ, I took this photo @Grappling industry.
Life is full of events. Someone born, get married, maybe divorce, having another generation, having birthday almost 100 times and death. It’s ok if I’m broke sometime, if I still can have some cakes and drinks.. that’s fine. and remember that this year my birthday I got so many messages ever in my life.
Thus, I’d give 10/10 for this baby’s first birthday party!
too long (1936 words)
*Something that really freaks me out rn
The views by countries
I might close my blog soon.. or is there any way I can block the IP from Korea? let me know seriously I jeez on my pants when I saw this.