I enjoy the combination of Midori note (MD) + uniball 0.38. I like the sound when I write, I like the way it makes residue(?), It needs few seconds to dry well and not smudged, but before that my letters still has ink on it. I like that visual it’s nice to see.

I finished 2 MDs in Bali, It’s therapeutic but I hardly read it over again again and again, maybe some notes I lost, I don’t even know that I lost. Uncountable MDs, before MD there was moleskins but I don’t like hard cover.

Thesedays people can write on their MacBook, table or even phone but I still write just because I like that feeling. How inconsiderate.

Bali thoughts on 2 MDs.

One of amazing thing about Bali was that they try not to use disposal stuffs such as plastic cups, cutlery, straws etc. Can’t say it’s about Bali but at least Ubud and Canggu. My first impression about this was very positive, why Korea and Australia can’t do it if Indonesia can? So I bought some wooden-made cutlery sets(it comes with its own case and very cute!) for my friends, bamboo straws for me and it got me think, is it really better?

Plastic straws (we all know plastic never never decay) vs Bamboo straws (you need to cut bamboo trees first, it needs to be manufactured as well as plastic, and you will also need to use cleaning material to wash it out)

I don’t die anyway because I don’t use straws, but this is serious question. There were some moments that I could never avoid, I didn’t mean to but I have consumed so many nappies, pens, paper, condoms, and even tampons… such these things I spent unconciously through whole my life time. My previous work offers complimentary drinks and snacks to customers and they use Styrofoam(EPS) cups. Polyethylene(PE) maybe? I’m now confused, it’s plastic and disposal anyway. I always told staffs that let’s minimise disposal cups usage because we anyway consume a lots of other things too such as water, tissues(you’ll be surprised if you know how much they spend a day), condoms and 24/7 heater when it’s winter, 24/7 when it’s summer. I never paid those stuffs but just ethically, can we do it.

No one ever listened to me. They even used new cup as ashtray even though there’s proper ashtray but you need to move your ass out to get it.

I’m not saying that I’m like SAVE EARTH nazi, I smoke, I eat meat, I purchase coffee without bringing my own cup sometimes. Think about yogi(ni)s who do vegan to make better earth. What about their be loved Avocados, almonds, … and Xmas pudding.

What about Bikram yoga, What makes yoga studio hot? I recently joined new Yoga place, It’s called humming puppy. It’s really unique. I lived in Marrickville for a while, it was top floor of old unit. Whenever a plane were passing low overhead, just over my head, my unit was shook like crazy. I’m not joking, was shook like so,

This kind of buzz

If you know that shaky sensation, or if you ever sat near engine on your flight you hear (or feel) zzzzzz zzzzzzzzz zzzzzzzzz zzz zzzzz zzzzzz kinda vibration + white noises. They (humming puppy) simulate this tremor in their studio. There must be a reason for this. I guess it’s same reason why we ommmmmm(or au-oo-mm) to start/finish class. However I’m back to bodymindlife because I like yoga from fitness perspective rather than sacred, spiritual attitude. I like to challenge, sweat, and get sore body after all rather than find inner-peace of my mind and calm. I’d rather have meditation class separately but let me sweat when I’m doing Yoga. (Actually yoga itself is including breathing+poses+meditation and we talk about it more later) I like Christian ralston’s class because he plays nice music(Seminyak beach club kinda- music, relaxed but groovy at the same time), and Azra’s, for beginners class.

Back to topic, Think about Bikram(hot) yoga, artificially heated rooms and encouraging people to drink kombucha or coconut juice than Coke Zero or vodka.

I get turned on when artsy people (I wouldn’t say artist) look at me as an object they made, like their well-made art works. They are satisfied at the same time they are in love with what they made with their own hands. Think about all the tattoo artist, hair designer, and yoga instructor! Because they are confident, they love what they do, and proud of themselves or what they made. It’s just too sexy to think about it.

Back to topic again, what is topic by the way? … Korean often say

“그 정성으로 공부를 했으면…”

literally translated

“If you’d have studied with this effort(time/energy)…”

For instance let’s say Chelsea is big fangirl of Jason momoa, She spends most of the time looking up Jason’s pictures on internet and buying fan merchandises from eBay. It’s her only joy and passion. She’s even been to Hawaii only because It’s Jason’s motherland but Jason momoa never know Chelsea’s existence.

In this case my parents or all acquaintances would’ve said

“If you’d have studied with this effort(time/energy)…” and It implies, “you’d have been better person… “

I saw so many temples in Bali. Like MANY. It seems like there are more temples in Bali than Churches in Seoul, Korea.  Maybe not I don’t know

Every temples was decorated by magnificently engraved stones and carved woods. It seems like the person whoever made all these art works would’ve spent all their lifetime to finish it. Think about their Effort, time, energy and passion. Have you even ever carved soap though, It’s mad. It’s mad because there’s no un-do option. Once you fucked it up, you’re fucked up. You either start new, or give up. Carving soap isn’t even easy then Stones? woods?

On the contrary, Many roads in Bali need to be fixed, they don’t need masterpiece but just you know.. more road signs, traffic lights, stuffs like that. Maybe little more regulation for this. Not only this kind of superficial things, the gap between rich and poor is massive there, Korea has same problem but they discuss now for free school lunch whereas some Bali kids don’t even have opportunity to go school.

What if, they(the older generation) spent more time on study than make magnificent looking temples. What if they spent more effort to build more institutes than make magnificent looking temples and statues. What if there are more Institutes for more teachers, more teachers for more kids so everyone at least can learn something rather than be prayer, who prays to God whole life as well as starving whole their life. What if there are more taxations, Doctors, Lawyers, and Teachers than taxi drivers and massage therapists.

Korean has been developing like rocket, after 6-70’s If I can compare, have more schools, hospitals and departments stores but do they happy? I personally spend more than 10K to just maintain my body. Join gym, get a trainer, get an organic supplements, and so on..(Social) Media chokes me to make me feel like I MUST be better person tomorrow, or next year, or 10 years later. I failed study hard so I failed to get a good job. Decent job, work hard, in order to pay nice car, nice house, bag and shoes. so I need compensate this, so I groom well in order to show off people that I’m being well. or maybe I just enjoy being fit.. not quite sure.

Think about it

Engrave stone statues whole their life time, no fucks are given about future, saving money, career but I’m happy because God bless me


Study hard, get a good job, work hard whole their life time, fame, money, pay this and that and now I’m old. What I was so enthusiastic for?

or maybe

in between somewhere, try not to be too superficial, try not to be too naive. All individuals have their own criteria for happiness, The most important thing is not to forget this gratitude, gratitude to everyone and everything that made me here, now thinking about this all bullshit things out of nowhere



4 thoughts on “thoughts”

  1. Sorry if it’s too personal, but is this related to the recent N5M Ginza drama? Whatever happens, fuck it all and keep trucking Chelsea, don’t let life’s shit break your free spirit 💪💪💪it is what you make of it that counts in the end.

  2. So what kind of work are you interested in? Maybe you should use some of the persistance you have devloped learning yoga and headstands and see if you can become a pest until you get in on the ground floor of an advertising agency.

    Your new gifs are very funny. White undies – funny

    The headstand that fails immediately — very funny

    Bong and dancing ktten – very funny!

  3. If you live your life in a perpetual state of fear of what people
    think of you. Its just the wrong mindset to live your life through.

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