Not writing it down to remember it later, writing it down to remember it now

20. Breathing teaching training (?)

It’s fascinating. Managing someone’s breath in/out is very manipulative yet does require lot of responsibility. Control human’s the most basic, essential need. Life starts and stops with a breath.

18. Every yogi cries at least once while savasana. I can’t forget that moment still, maybe never. That tingling sensation, many many strange colours, champagne bubbles… some people call it as yoga high and yes, it’s like drug. I always chase the very first euphoria but the harder i try, the further i’m from it. I’m jealous whenever i see people cry in savasana.

19. Thinking about death, the greatest fear for me until last year. I thought about it randomly for the first time, every now and then it comes back and back and back and back and back again whenever i’m happy or satisfied. Not when i’m depressed. These days i think about it every single moment, like “isn’t it good time to die now” 🤔 maybe more likely “i wish time stops here and forever” while I’m driving i imagine someone drives from opposite makes mistake and i’m dead in a second. While I’m eating i imagine the food is poisoned so bad so i die in a breath. While I’m doing yoga heart stroke so i’m dead. I always want to die but passively, without pain. If everyone dies one day anyway, why not now?

21. Meditation class !! i am very awkward when teacher says ‘imagine a thing or person that you love the most’ because i don’t have one. Still can’t tell the difference between space out(daydream) and meditation.

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Once the teacher was like ‘move your body freely’ and everyone(24 people) kind of.. started move their body a little passively. and He cued again ‘move more freely, bigger’ and people started really move around class and kinda danced.. and then He said ‘bigger! can you make bigger than that! what about dance? can you jump?’ and people went hopping, running, they went mad, those contemporary dance sort of movement frightened me little because it was just.. don’t know.. it just visually terrified me. I confessed to M, said It scared me.

M is the one that I like the most amongst 24 people, We never met before YTT but we get “do you guys know each other for long?” so often from everywhere around Surryhills. M is the one who talks to random people about random things. unlikely me, I think random things but I don’t talk to random people. Mainly because I’m afraid of rejection, the fear of “what if people hate me because I say this?” but M doesn’t really care.

I feel the urge of walking 4 foot (like 4 legged animals; tiger, lion, dog and cat…) quite occasionally. no one ever was keen though, whenever I try to do this fun activity (4 legged animal walking) in 30 years whole my life They(friends, family) ran away from me, they ignored me, they pretended they don’t know me. I understand though, generally people don’t like things that isn’t familiar. .. M was injured herself a day before YTT. She fell over and did full-split for the first time(accidentally) in her life so She couldn’t walk properly. (we’re assuming that her inner thigh muscle was shook.) I suggested 4 points walking on very middle of surryhills. I never expected that she gonna do it but I knew that she not gonna judge me or flee if I start crawl. But She walked kneeling down. WTF? yes, she walked with her knees only because I was walking on my foot and hands. I was shook but at the same time was so glad, never anticipated that I ever gonna meet someone who’s not giving a fuck like this!!! That’s only one small happening but M is different, way she act isn’t react. She acts not react. When she wants to sing, she sings. When she wants to dance, she does it too. People take picture of us if we do headstand on the middle of the sidewalk all of sudden without any notice, they ask us if we’re performance artist when we had many colours on our face. (she brought face/body paint and I’m like wtf? sounds fun!) this is whole new world! Having friend like M is awesome!

and M said, (back to topic) it’s because most of people are oppressed by whatever it is. I saw people liberate themselves and I don’t know how to express this but hrm.. some people really need to be chill. I and M for example, if we want to dance in woolies we do. But lots of people don’t, They can only dance if someone strongly order them. It’s just like other version of me thinking “what if people hate me because I say this?” or like “what if I look bad because I’m not good at it”

Be like M! act not react, You are the one who only can free yourself.


I noticed that I get drunk from drinking KBC. I’m not even joking. I always felt tipsy but no one believed that I get drunk by KBC so I’m like well..

What I’m doing these days is basically I shake KBC hard and open it, then let the bubbles out. I do 3 times of this or more so make the most of fizziness gone then I might get drunk less (?) no scientific proof, imagine you’re drinking no fizzy beer or champagne. There’s not many alcohol taste(or real amount) isn’t it? But at the same time out of curiosity, aren’t those bubbles/fizziness are from its fermentation? If fermentation produce probiotic bacteria, doesn’t it mean bubbles=probiotic? what if there are not much good things I could get left if I let all bubbles(gas) out.

There are few reasons that I like Kombucha.

  1. It claims that it’s healthy.
  2. The bottle (usually it’s in a brown glass) gives me the feeling that I’m drinking alcohol. It feels like I’m having fun.
  3. The taste is like champagne. I always desire to enjoy champagne but never properly could since I’m allergic to any kind of alcohol.

However if I know what champagne taste like, would be like KBC. I can be wrong because I don’t know any types of champagne taste!


Maybe we’re living in the world of too many options. I’ve never imagined that one day barista would ask me like “what milk would you?” … every cafe (at least in surryhills) these days have 4-5 types of milk at least! Oat, soy, macadamia, almonds, coconut… full, skim, …. I’m in love with macadamia chai latte @shift eatery… so good… but aren’t too mant options bother me sometimes? I can’t even make my mind between snickers or mars. thinking about the tie when the whole world was more simple than now, when people grow their own food, exchange things only for thier particular need. Thinking about my highschool days, I was struggling with my future study, future career, who ever knew that I’m going to be Jamie @perth, Xmas @sydney, I wanted to be everything but I didn’t want to do anything at the same time. There were too many options! Teachers, parents, friends… whole world was forcing me to choose only one that I want to be, I’m so stressed out now by just thinking about it. I wanted to be prettier, be more positive and happier but couldn’t decide what I really want to do (and it’s changing anyway every 3 month cycle) I wanted to experience more things before I choose one. Thinking about all those Kombucha brands, protein balls, some stuffs just made people think in the way of “I purchase this kombucha so I’m different from people who get that kombucha.” the whole point of branding, marketing… More options to choose doesn’t necessarily mean that I’m living a better life. .. Back to oat milk, it’s good now that people respect other’s preference. Same sex marriage was illegal few years back then, Women couldn’t vote once upon a time, who ever even thought about gluten free, dairy free or nut free a century ago? how about free range eggs and chicken, .. organic cotton, bamboo cotton,,..🤢


Cafes here in Surryhills try their best to rip people off by using the most vulnerable, insecurity part of human being. What makes people want to take a picture of their food and then upload instagram, facebook, blog, whatever it is? maybe because people want to prove. Prove that they are having their best life. Not many people can buy super car or fancy bag but most of us can pay $20-50 for a meal. Super car, fancy shoes last longer to maintain their happiness but we can have a millions of dinner plate picture with same amount of money. It may never end If i start to compare in detail, how funny i try to gauge all those things include individual’s very subjective happiness? And i’m the one who takes picture before grab a fork. 🤔 people want to be happy and they want to be happier than others because it’s subjective and they don’t know how to measure their happiness. It’s easy, very easy though..


I lost my notes ☺️

People go nuts when they realise that they’re getting old. Then They all of sudden start to eat good, exercise well to just maintain their the youngest moment. Sadly we never can be benjamin button so try hard to keep our body as like today.

All the asana practices are designated for one pose, sitting down well wtf, Why you want to sit down properly? Because then you meditate well WTF!

The more you know!


How fascinating, anatomy class! I’m late today and said M that I might fail this course like other courses I fucked up in past. She’s like “this will be the one that you won’t fail!” and I road killed cat for the first time in my life and it’s the worst feeling ever you can have. fuck!


5 guys asked me if i’m working again so i write even though i am busy at doing my things 🙁 why it’s so important though, i mean there must be a reason if i chose to work interstate, i didn’t want people talk about me. But anyway, if i take that big part of your life, thank you very much.

i am actually very upset 😞

You can look up some reviews here and there if you like. The funny thing is… because i don’t know who they are, some deep fried dickheads go nuts on my thread like

I mean my customers whole my career never ever complained to me about smoking (or bad breath) maybe because they didn’t just care, maybe they couldn’t be bothered. And i am not that heavy smoker you mother fuckers, those morons never even seen me and saying ewww i don’t like you because you’re walking ashtray. Bro seriously, i never begged you to come see me. What they do is like asked OP that if i smoke and OP said yes she does. the original writer didn’t even say any badthing about it and what the fuck is going on?

Just because they are consumers and i’m the one that they spend their precious money on so they speak without filter their brain. I am not upholding smoking ciggy but just saying how can this still happen in modern days..2018.

When it comes to customer service; hospitality situation not only for working lady circumstance, someone gets paid by providing some sort of service, of course quality of service matters. I would not want to pay for what i don’t want. But the fuck have you smelled me me before? I wanted to roast him so bad but punterplanet kind of restricted me before i start troll, they consider me as advertiser which makes sense kind of, even though i’ve never promoted myself there.

* but i got my profile page lol *

But yes! What i’m trying to say is that… can you live your life fully? Rather than talking other’s life. Ok xmas back to be working lady and does it really matter? 🤔 it wasn’t even in Sydney. But here’s another review for who’s curious about. Lolollol

Can’t believe this one right, attitude is like 7/10, i’m totally underrated… but i admit that my attitude has been changed over a week, i mean first few days Jamie did her job. They(clients) probably got the best service in their lifetime. After few days she got exhausted, lost will power, (because the only reason to be back to work was 1. To pay September’s rent, 2. To cover WA trip.) and i made it in first 2 days. You don’t need million dollars to travel around WA unless you want to stay ritz or hilton. But apparently i got too busy because innocent perth people never had this good bbbj so once they see me they return for sure. Because Jamie’s kinda limited edition and you may never see her again. And like… phew if Jamie starts complain it never ends so she didn’t really want to, but it happens.. so here it goes

Jamie wanted to make money but not like that, she wanted to go gym, yoga, and brunch etc but she couldn’t (due to high demand) there was no such balance between work and life, Jamie shoved up food include WA blueberries and she hates to eat quick. The last day of work boss lady (She’s Chinese and very caring person, Jamie quite liked her) said


After few glowing reviews here and there (hey there’s apparently more on ausxxx but can’t be bothered to look it up) random people started book me as well as on top of return customers, the receptionist made Jamie’s booking like super tight

But i’ll tell you something, Jamie never waste your every single second… She also always wants to show the best of herself to customers. She needs to get her hair done, make up, check false lashes if they’re still there perhaps she also needs to clean the room etc so she demands at least, minimum 10minutes between each jobs. And i think that day she got those tight bookings from 6 to about 12. She was ok, it feels great when you’re popular, it makes you money. Better than no one likes you so make 0 money even though you’re labelled as working girl.

One customer knocked door while Jamie was still with previous customer. It has been delayed since afternoon earlier that day, customers were waiting outside sometimes, some pissed off so cancelled booking etc. how this is happening?

She felt that the management there wanted to make money out of her as much as can while she was there. She might not come back to perth so why not squeeze all the juice out until it drain? Jamie could be wrong, She’s just being negative. The management cares about girl, what if Jamie can’t make much money, she could be upset like other girls? They don’t want upset girls, once the boss lady asked to Jamie. Why do you do this job? Of course… to make money.

Who knows, but at least Jamie got upset so then she treated customers with less quality of service, attitude, skills, whatever it is… yes. She wasn’t that bad to be honest but just not better than first few days.

Anyway, have no idea how all story shifted to this way but again people, why don’t you live your life fully??? I mean why waste time on talking someone else’s life? Don’t you feel like it’s waste?

But thanks for the Perth guys and management, it was more than enough to pay my rent for september, she could pay Audi Q5 for her WA trip, paid back friends, and she even could start her new course which she desired for like 2 month, lol forgot to mention, she met blueberry guy too 🤦🏻‍♀️

The course she’s doing now is a bit different from what she expected though, so she writes this instead of focusing on


Manas or buddhi

Sense of actions, sense of cognitions…

Ps. The people who wants private session in Sydney (include 5 peeps today), i can’t make it on september but if you still keen later than that please PM me (through punterplanet or here ‘ask me anything’ section.) your dick pics 😉 we can discuss about it.

this course starts 7am everyday in Surryhills and I have to wake up 5am. Class finishes 5 sharp and i do yoga after that like an hour. when i get back to my place it’s like 8. I am so tired 😭😭😭 and can’t believe this is only first week 😭

Jamie dedicates this article to you brainless 💖


OMG 😲 so many inquiries! Thanks baobaes!